Some hurts take time to heal. And some of us (mostly women) apologize too much and too fast – to our own detriment. This is for you.
Kavannah (Intention) For Those Not Ready To Forgive
The weight of this season compels us to forgive,
and to open our hearts.
There are many among us who have endured deep hurts,
and some from many years ago
Some of us are not sure of the path forward
amidst the prayers and pleadings of Yom Kippur to wipe the slate clean and start anew.
For the woman who was violated
and for the man beaten down,
And for anyone with a broken heart or a crushed soul
who might not be quite ready to forgive.
Take your time,
Sometimes the timetable of the High Holy Days
doesn’t match the rhythm of your heart.
Sometimes our devoted prayers get intermingled with inner voices not quite resolved:
“maybe it wasn’t all that bad”
“just let go”
“let bygones be bygones”
“be the bigger person” or
“maybe I’m being too sensitive.”
love yourself enough
your own timing.
Be patient enough to
stay in the place of
You commit to the work of resolution,
not being attached to an outcome or timetable.
Trust that you will find your way forward,
that you WILL come to a time
where holding on
hurts more than letting go.
Forgive yourself for not being yet ready.
From that place of total acceptance,
May you have faith that the path will open up.
Rabbi Jill Berkson Zimmerman, October 2016